There is something wrong with me, for real!

OK - so my luck sucks lately.

Last night I went to take my inhaler - it uses a pill that breaks open once I press the button, and then I inhale it. I've been on this med for 2 years twice a day, you'd think I would know how to use it, right? Well somehow, I put my prozac pill in it instead, broke that, and inhaled that powder!! NASTY! It was the most gross thing I have EVER tasted - I felt sick immediately, and was quite freaked out because I don't think one should be inhaling prozac powder!

Night before - a wasp decided to settle between my breasts, and when I saw it, it stung me 4 times! My chest swelled up, I began to vomit, oh what a fun night!

And the day before that - I can't get water in my left ear due to my tube being missing and my ear clogs. Accidentally got water in there for the first time in 12 years! Ear clogged, I used alcohol on it, the pain was intense. So now my equilibrium is off and 3 days later, I still feel wobbly and hear swishing.

What will happen today? Oh the suspense!

A Thoughtful Day

For some reason today, I've done a lot of reflecting. Maybe it has to do with the dream I had early this morning.

Caldor had opened its doors again, and Marc and I were hired back to work together. Suddenly I felt like 1996 when we first fell in love, the excitement of seeing him at work, the secret touches, the stolen kisses (yes that sounds cliche but it was quite true!). And I woke up craving that, missing that. I miss working side by side with Marc. I miss us being a team together.

So then that led to my thinking - am I really a good wife? Am I still the woman he fell in love with over 12 years ago? I hope so. I love him just as much if not more now than I ever did. And I can only hope he feels the same way.

Then that led to me thinking about life in general - am I really who I want to be? Do others see me as that as well?

A challenge on my scrapping board gave me a chance to reflect on my thoughts today - hopefully tomorrow will be less reflective for me - especially since I really don't have any answers to my questions of today.

Welcome!

Welcome to my first ever blog! If you are reading this, then you have nothing else to do, I'm assuming, which is why I usually search blogs, haha.

For those of you who don't know me, I'm Shawn, wife to Marc for almost 11 1/2 years. I have 4 beautiful children - Melany who is 21, Megan who is 18, Laurel who is also 18, and Austin who is 6. I'm also the grandmother to my beautiful Dominick, who is just 3 weeks old - Laurel is his mommy. AND I'm excited to be a grandmother again in November when Melany gives birth to beautiful Gabriella (I already know from the u/s pics she'll be gorgeous!). And lastly, I am mommy to my doggetties as my hubby calls them - Nami and Molly, who are both 12.

I love to take pictures. If you don't know this, you should. Because that is a huge part of who I am. I am the one behind the camera, always have been, always will be. I must take pictures of everything and anything in my life. Why, I'm not sure, but I must. I have this fear of being gone one day and my family not being able to remember - I want future generations to see us all for who we are, for what we did, for the fun and beautiful memories we created. First baths, first days of school, first proms, first cars, graduations, first babies, and later down the road, 2nd, 3rd, 4th babies. Pictures of great-great-grandparents with new babies, beautiful artwork created by little hands, messes made in the kitchen with bowls of cornstarch and glue, quiet moments staring at waterfronts, and family family family!!! And to make sure others see these, I scrapbook. A lot. A real lot.

Some might say I'm a tad obsessed with pictures and scrapping - to that, I say hurray! You know who I am! I love my family more than anything in the world, they are my heart, my soul, and I love love to scrap them and photo them.

So now that you know who I am, sit back and enjoy, or get bored - you never know what you might find in a day in my life!